gingin's blog: Journey, October 31

<p>Been two months since this journey began...Bill is hanging in there, but it is a struggle. He is so thin...forget the meat...just skin and bones. We've had good days and bad this past week. Bill sleeps alot during the day and wakes about every two hours in the night...grrr. Wish we could come up with the right combo so he could sleep longer at night...not much exciting on TV and after a full day I'm not real anxious to stay up with him. Bear has gotten used to nessie...silly dog...the other day Bill had a treatment with the line drapped over Bear who could not have cared less! What a change LOL</p>
<p>Saturday the nextdoor neighbor brought us a peach cobbler warm from the oven. Bill had been wanting something gooey with fruit, so it was perfect. It was his dinner that night washed down with a milkshake. Fine with me...was happy to see him eat something. Sunday he had broth from my homemade ham and bean soup...nothing really to speak of since then. Hopefully tonight onion soup which he really likes. Been hard trying to come up with something that appeals to him...usually it's one bite and forget it. Dogs are happy campers though as they get the leftovers. Managed to schlepp plants into the GH over the weekend...was glad Bill slept so much and wasn't really aware that I wasn't inside with him. Made sure I had the cell in my pocket so he could call if he needed anything, which he did a few times. I absolutely HATE my phone, but was happy to have it. HATEFULL,HATEFULL beast. Bill just had to have touch screen phones...stupid thing hates me as much as I hate it. Anyone have an old VERIZON phone that isn't touch screen that you're not using??? If so, I'd be happy to give it a new home. LOL My old phone is an Altell flip that we had before Verizon took over and can not be re-activated GRRRR Always something. At least the GH is up and running even if it is earlier then I wanted. And Bill is happy that I won't have to worry over stuff getting damaged from the cold we've had. A silver lining...one less thing for him to stress over and feel guilty about since he can't help.</p>
<p>Had to go to town yesterday to get Bill's BP meds that hospice doesn't provide. As always Richard was here to "Bill sit". Don't know what we'd do right now without him. For some reason, medicade did not help with the cost...Sue thought it was odd too. Oh well he needs to stay on them. Also had to get a small heater for the bathroom...been too cold in there for Bill at bath time. Guess I should think about bumping the heat up some. He is still talking about another pair of jeans, bless his heart. When Sue came to see him she measured and said I should probably go with a 30" waist....YIKES...down 6" in two months!! Waiting on medical supply to bring a walker and air mattress overlay for the hospital bed. Would be wonderful if Bill could get his boney butt comfortable. He still wants to sleep in the bedroom, but the bed is so high that he's now having a hard time getting in and out. I try to help as much as possible without upsetting him...wants to do it BY HIMSELF. As much as it hurts to see him sinking, at least he isn't suffering the effects of chemo or radiation as well. He hasn't said a word about a second opinion since he was approved by medicade. Guess just knowing it is an option somehow makes him feel better, whereas before it wasn't. And so we muddle through, one day at a time. Happy Halloween to you all, as I take care of my scarecrow...would rather have Grumpy back.</p>

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