I am wondering if you may be thinking we shouldn't be doing this. Maybe your thinking it is a lot of work for us to do or perhaps you are thinking that we shouldn't give up the money from our plants? I know at one time I thought stuff like that.
About 6 months after my husband lost his job I went to church and a lady called and ask if I would be at church as she had something for me. We had a very old car and when we bought it for 400 dollars it needed a drivers side door window. It was 1993 and the car was a 1974 Datsun we bought for 400 dollars. We located a window at a junk yard for 38 dollars and my husband put it in. well something wasn't just right and the window shattered. How on earth could I pay for another one??? Well on my way to church that night I kept thinking that she might be giving me money that would cover a new window and I would stop myself because 5 dollars would be a blessing. As the window had plastic and tape and it scared me as it was wednesday night and anyone could reach tear it off and hurt me. Well all these thoughts of how much was going off in my head and I kept grabbing them and saying stop it.
When I arrived at church Marty was there and said the envelope she had was not from her it was from someone whom wanted to stay anonymous. I ask her how does one take what someone was giving them as it is so hard to do. She explained to me that by not accepting what was given me I would lose that persons blessing. It was still hard to accept but she explained it a more and I accepted it. I decided I would wait till I was home and open the envelope with my DH.
When I got home he was also struggling with it and I explained what she had said. We took a deep breath to prepare for the feelings that would flood over us. We said we really hoped it was enough to by another 38 dollar window. There was a check inside and I took a deep breath and unfolded it. .......OMGosh it was 1000.00 DOLLARS. We both broke down and cried.
It was still hard to accept but it was enough for the window and and 1 months bills. It was only the first of many miracles Jesus did for us. It was a very humbling experience as your pride say oh my it is too hard to accept from others....but I learned to smile and say TY. Still hard at times with just little things like my friend buying me lunch but I nod and say Thank You.
I am saying this to say we wouldn't do this if we didn't want too. The thing that scares me is my plants won't sell and so no money is made....Well when I worked at Waffle House after he was fired...The tips were awful as no one believed I only made 3.00 an hour. When I counted them it was hard but I would put a smile in my heart and say "This is exactly how much God wanted me to take home. So that said I am saying it will be exactly what God wanted. Good or Bad Jesus is always in control.
So that said I really hope to hear from some of you. Please don't stay mad. Bad things happen to good people and if I could stop bad things in life I would have done that years ago. But I can't so although it is hard sometimes Very hard..I pick myself up and dust myself off and reach to heaven for guidance. Yeah I know I make it sound easy....but at times it is still so very very hard. But I make it
sometimes crying the whole way. It is only money and I learned I can't take stuff with me but I can love people unconditionally and help when I can.
All that said
to all of you.
Blessings,
Sandy
