The mechanic thought at first it was the thermostat so he put a new one on. Wasn't that. Then he got to looking & thought it was the water pump & radiator. Doesn't think it's the water pump but the radiator seems to have some piece missing. He also mentioned the timing chain & heads. So who knows.
I tried to start one of those GoFundMe accounts only it wasn't GoFundMe, it was the one that's Christian based. But I'm tech stupid & couldn't figure everything out😬. I have no clue if its posted or not😂. So, we just took out a loan for $2000. It was frustrating at first because the bank needed both of us but my husband doesn't go out unless its for appointments (& then I have to push him to do it). The people's vehicle we are catching rides from is nasty & disgusts me so he REALLY refuses to get in it. We use the excuse of his oxygen tanks & covid as reasons to not get him out. But the bank worked with us & I went back & forth to the bank, carrying paperwork for his signature. Since the mechanic is an hour away He had suggested using something called CashApp but the bank didn't recommend that. So I told the mechanic we couldn't get the app to load on our phones & sent a cashier's check through the mail. He got it Saturday & has ordered the parts🙌 so hopefully those will be in by the end of this week.
I don't mean to sound unappreciative or petty but I hate how these people are doing. They live with a friend because her car needed repairs, she needed a ride, & they needed a place to live. She said they have dropped her off 2 hours before she had to be at work & didn't pick her up until 5 HOURS after she got off. When I tell them I have errands to run, its going to take awhile, but if you pick me up about 10 a.m. that will give me time to do everything before you have to pick up the husband. Nope. It's 2 or 3 hours later. And then I'm rushed. Hurry up, hurry up. I get in the vehicle....& wait for her to get off her phone. I say, "Thought you were in such a hurry?" In the past, I have driven an hour to pick her up & not ask her to put gasoline in my vehicle, but every single time I get in her vehicle, "Oh no my gas light just went on" So I'll put $10 in but it is SO frustrating!!! Hopefully we won't have this to deal with too much longer.
Bare with me....this is going to be long.
Last week, on the way home from taking my sister to have her port flushed, my car overheated. We had looked around a bit at a couple thrift stores, a couple plant nurseries, & stopped at a drive thru (because the lobby was closed) for something to eat. So it was 7 or 8 p.m. At a few stops I had left the car running because my nephew didn't want to go in & it gave us a chance to charge our phones. I did do a lot of gunning I guess to change lanes on the interstate & a few times I was on those exits you come off of but further down its another exit, which are horrible when it's 3 lanes of vehicles rushing & changing lanes. A light came on the dashboard that said the A/C was turned off due to high engine temperature (or something similar). So I turned the A/C off as I'm looking at the dashboard & see my temperature gauge is at the hot point. So I immediately look in my mirror & change lanes until I've taken some exit. We sit there & the gauge goes down almost to where it was before our trip. So I pull back onto the road & go just a few feet & it goes back up. So I pull over onto the grassy part where a church is. We have no idea where we are, what street we're on. So we Google the name of the church & the muffler shop next door. We don't know what to do. Nothing's open, we aren't sure where we are, we aren't sure about the neighborhood we're in, & we're an hour from home & not sure how we are getting home. I call my husband but there's not much he can do, at home on oxygen & I'm in our only transportation. My sister calls another of her son's since he lived in the Shreveport/Bossier City area for several years before moving. His dad came to see if maybe I just needed coolant (I didn't) & tried to give it a look over in the dark with nothing but a flashlight & a overhead street light. After moving the car into the church's parking lot, he gave us a ride to Minden. He couldn't give us a ride all the way because he had to be up early for work the next day. So we were able to get our uncle to come get us & carry us the rest of the way home. The nephew gave us the name of a guy who works on vehicles & that's where its been for the past week. At first he thought it was the thermostat but after putting a new one in, its not that. Then he thought it was the water pump & radiator. Its not the water pump but it is the radiator. It's also something to do with the heads. It is going to cost about $2000 to fix. This is in addition to needing transmission work as the transmission is slipping really bad & does this jerking not long after you start driving it. We will be using the money we had put aside to pay someone to fix our riding & push mowers, to pay someone to bushhog our yard, to buy a weedeater, & pay our property taxes. Everything we have & it's still no where what we need. With no ride, I've given my hours to someone else so my income just took a nosedive. To say I've been depressed is an understatement. I look at the empty driveway & it's depressing. I look at the yard, with the grass as high as your thighs in some places (I'm not kidding) & it's depressing. It is also scary because I can't see if there's a snake when I go outside or I let the dogs out.
This is going up the side of the driveway.
I don't believe I've ever been so low, so depressed, so angry, so hopeless. I would have all these emotions & just start crying. Its like I didn't know how to deal with all the influx of data I was getting.
I've been reading a daily devotional written by Oswald Chambers. I haven't read it in several days so yesterday (September 25) I decided to see what it said:
And today's (in case you're interested):
Each one of these had a word or two that just struck a cord in me. Made me feel a tinny tiny better. And then a man from church, one of my Facebook friends, posted a Scripture verse.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you & not to harm you, plans to give you hope & a future.
This verse had a huge impact on me so I did what I always do - I read it again in my study Bible. I also read the verse before & after this verse so as to see the context. Here is the study Bible's explanation of that particular verse:
(12)Then you will call on me & come & pray to me, & I will listen to you. (13) You will seek me & find me when you seek me with all your heart. (14) I will be found by you," declares the Lord, "& will bring you back from captivity [Or, will restore your fortunes].
The study Bible's explanation for these verses was this:
The Lord would restore his people when they turned back to Him & sought Him with all their hearts. There could be no restoration without true repentance. Those who earnestly seek God anywhere & everywhere will, in time, cultivate the sacred art of meeting Him at every crossroad & of feeling His breath in every wind. Through pain & victory, each new step will help them come to know Him better.
I believe that it isn't just the hardships & experiences we have that are God's teaching tools. I believe it is also how we handle those experiences & hardships. How we act & how we react.
Nothing has really changed. The grass is still overgrown & the yard still looks terrible. The car is still in Shreveport, an hour away. We still have no idea how we are going to pay for it or how we're going to get Kenny here & there when needed. When I can go back to work my regular days. But it's like a huge burden has been lifted, & at least for now, I feel like everything's going to be ok.
Several days ago, about the time I started hearing a loud rattling sound it registered that the dogs were barking. I was actually on the other side of that wall, inside & I guess that's why I could hear so clearly. After getting all the dogs & the cat indoors - a lot harder than you would think - I debated what to do. The rattlesnake was not moving off & I couldn't let it stay there. I know snakes have their place in nature, & I know it is illegal to kill them unless they pose a threat to you. Since I have to think of myself, my husband, & all the critters here, I called a neighbor with a gun.
Same area without snake & cleaned up a bit. I also put some tomatoes I wintersowed in the ground. Thank goodness I live in the country so hopefully my fencing is unnoticeable.
Why I hate orange trumpet vine. It grows in the woods nearby & along the road in the trees. We have never planted it yet fight it constantly. We haven't used the chimney in several years & either the wind or a bird has dropped seeds. I plan to get a chimney sweep out to clean it out & put some sort of cover on it.
We have lived here for 24 years & I just noticed gladiolas in this area right at my property line. This area is where those huge high line, transformer things for electricity going to the transformers to your house are. The light company comes through once or twice a year bushhogging & sometimes spraying. Which saddens me because that area gets loaded with blackberries. They maintain it but it is actually owned by a man who doesn't live here. I've only heard about him through my elderly neighbor & met him once. A few months ago he had all the pine cut, leaving a mess with trees & stumps everywhere. Anyway, I took a picture with my phone & showed it to my husband. Who informed me that he had told me about them for years. (Guess I REALLY don't hear him when he opens his mouth😬).
I went back the next day & dug up several. I know its the wrong time but I hate to think they will be sprayed.
I'm always stopping & putting turtles in the road on the side of the road they were headed but this one was in my yard. I've always seen them as one color so this seems either younger or older maybe.
Tomorrow is my anniversary. I must remember that but right now I'm irritated with him. In his defense, he's on oxygen & doesn't leave the bedroom much because he watches a lot of YouTube videos (cooking, aliens, deep state, his interests are all over the map). I know this. And yet..... We still have Zoey, the little puppy someone dumped here a few months ago & who I'm hoping will go on a transport with a rescue to be adopted out. I've written little things from her & posted on Facebook with the tag #ZoeytheWonderDog if you are interested in seeing all the crap she does.
This morning I had 2 accidents to clean up, which made me irritated because no one acted like they needed to go out & as soon as I woke up, I let them all out. When I got home from work, this is the first thing I saw:
Please note that my husband was in the kitchen when I came home. To get to the kitchen, he walked over this. His excuse? That he had "just" picked up pieces of something the puppy had torn up. I said well, if it's a contest, I had to clean up 2 large puddles this morning. To which he said (which is why I'm ticked), yeah, I saw that & don't know why no one told me they wanted out. I told him he had missed my point (which was, if you see it, clean it up).
I bought a few Sempervivum from ValleyLynn here & some stuff from various places. I had the semps potted up & sitting on the couch in aluminum pans. Twice the puppy got to them but I was able to stick them back into the soil. But yesterday I couldn't find one & one is pretty damaged. Someone sent cactus cuttings & I left the box on the couch, thinking since the box was partially closed, the cacti were in an egg carton, & they're cacti, they would be ok. Nope. I have no idea if there are any more out in the yard that I can't find.
They were all in the egg carton so I'm not sure how the dog even got them out. This is the first cactus I've ever owned & I don't know any varieties, but I'm potting them up.
I found some heavy duty totes the other day that I'll be using to container garden in. Naturally I was completely out of potting soil. I noticed yesterday as I drove by they had workers out under a tarp & today the door was open, so I thought great! I can get several bags, pay here & never go near the rest of the store. Nope. The person outside walked back in & I was told that was exit only. So I decided to wait on soil because I really didn't want to walk all the way to the entrance, walk all the way to garden center, & then all the way back to the front & then all the way to my car. So I got in the car & went home.
Tried posting yesterday but had crappy service:
I had to meet her close to her home, at this church on the side of the road about 45 miles from my house. On the way, I stopped to put a turtle in the ditch & out of the road, in the same direction he/she was traveling. Too many people think its fun to run over them😠 or they see them too late to avoid them. So if I see one I always try to help it along. I read somewhere that turtles live their whole lives in the same 1 or 2 mile area; that when people pick them up (even if they release them somewhere), they are always searching for their territory.
The lady gave me eggs from her chickens. As a kid growing up, my grandmother sometimes had chickens so dirty looking eggs aren't completely alien to me but I've spent so many years buying pretty clean white eggs that I have to admit, I was a little taken aback how 'fresh' these looked. What a reality check for people who would never think about breakfast coming from a chicken's butt😀😂😀. We talked for a few minutes about wild animals & chickens. They have several different varieties & will be selling chicks soon. If I happen to get the coop redone, I'll see how much she's selling them for. My husband loved having chickens before, watching them & feeding them. We never gathered eggs from them So sometimes a hen went missing & would show up later with chicks. As long as he was the one taking care of them. Not like the situation with the dogs & the cat where I'm the one feeding, cleaning up after.
Once the rehabber got the baby opposums, I decided to go on to the next town where Home Depot is, another 15 or 20 minutes away. I wanted to get back home & mow, & its just so much easier to use a grabber instead of bending to pick up sticks. I also wanted to see if they had the attachments to the ego brand pole saw we already had. We had spent 20 minutes on the phone with someone trying to explain what we wanted. So I thought I would see if they had what we wanted & maybe explain it better in person, perhaps showing what I meant. We have the battery & the system or whatever it's called but need the weed eater attachment & we just discovered there's a cultivate attachment so wanted that (depending on price). But, we have to order them. I asked 3 different people & looked 3 different times for a grabber. I guess they were out because I never found one. As always, I tried to stay away from people but there were a lot more people than I was expecting. Maybe because they had shorter hours. However, these people were not just browsing, they were buying. I did buy a couple items. I've been wanting to try growing mushrooms so I've been looking for one of these grow kits to try. And I needed more soil to cover my potato plants & thought if I got it there I wouldn't have to go into Wal-Mart. As I'm making my way to the check out & then to my car, I'm smelling something. I finally realize its the soil I bought. Hoping that means its good soil for my plants.