gingin's blog: Journey Friday, Sept. 14

<p>Whew...another "what a day". After 7 "blue screens" I was finally able to boot up and connect...I REALLY need to figure this out before I do permanant damage to this HATEFUL beast...too tired and overwealmed(SP?).</p>
<p>I am starting to hate mornings...never really was a morning person unless something FUN was on the agenda. Bless his heart, Bill is always up before me, but he used to let me make a cup of coffee before he started with yakety yakety. Not so now...my feet are barely on the floor before he starts. SCREAM !!!!!! But I need to go back to yesterday...He napped/slept until after 7pm...laid down around 1:30 or 2:00. OK he needs to sleep, but this is not like him. Needed a pill...do I wake him or not...figured I'd wait till 8pm, but when he woke up he got one early and one late. Stayed awake for maybe half an hour and back asleep. SOO here we are this morning...mouth runnith over the second my feet hit the floor. WANT COFFEE be quiet already. I so don't want to be ugly, but give me a break already!!!  One, maybe two sips of coffee and off we go. He is dictating this and that...I'm making notes. Time to feed the dogs...Bill hold that thought till they're done eating. Yea team all 4 have eaten and we're back to yackety and note taking. I look over at the hosp. bed. Dixie is curled up next to him with her head in his lap...both look so happy and my heart melts. I feel so guilty for being ugly earlier. Get the camera...yeah, right, nice try. As soon as Dix sees it, she's history. Got a yuck picture...better then nothing. Bill is really stressed out to get a new pair of jeans that fit...the ones he has now fall off because he has lost so much weight. I can't get them right now for him...no extra$$...he wants them before my procedure on Monday...can I stop at the store on my way to the hosp. ??? HELLO....no way!!! no time...need to make sure his meds are good to go as well as my own, plus not knowing if they are keeping me overnight need to have him as well as Richard on line with what needs to be done. OMG...I so want to slap the crud out of him...like there isn't enough on my plate right now??? I'm trying really hard not to loose it. Go to the post office, touch base with my ride for Monday and stop at the store for dog biscuits and milk. Bill has gotten mail about his app for medicaid...need to call on or before Sept.14. This IS Sept 14!!!! Packy poo...he is not up to the call, so it falls to me. 3 HOURS later after being on hold and disconnected, I have lost it. I am in tears...don't know whether to s**t or go blind. Bill is VERY upset and feeling guilty because I am so upset. He says not interested in eating anything...crap me either, but I manage to eat leftovers for the third time..oh well, this too shall pass and my silver lineing to today's cloud was looking over and seeing Dixie cuddled up to Bill on the hosp. bed with her head in his lap. On any given day the silver lineing IS there if only you take a moment to see it.</p>

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