Weedwhacker said: Cooper, if gardening is truly causing you more suffering than joy, I would say you should trade it in for something that does cause you to be happy. However, if pretty much everything is causing you stress and anxiety you really need to discuss that with a professional who can help you figure out why and what you can do about it.
crawgarden said: Cooper, what does give you joy? Professional help is an excellent idea!
crawgarden said: Plants come and go, look at it as another gardening opportunity!😀
MsDoe said: First of all, Cooper you are not wasting anybody's time. And mental health issues are, one way or another, part of every person's life.
I also encourage you to get counseling. You are suffering, and there is help.
I've been pondering your opening question: how do I deal with the anxiety inherent in gardening? I enjoy the feeling of being closer to nature when I garden. But nature is not always kind, it's not all rainbows and unicorns. Neither the good part nor the bad part is entirely under my control. I do what I can to create the right conditions for my plants to thrive, but at some point I have to let go and let nature take over. I think that letting go is a good thing.
Nature doesn't care, she may reward you and may not, but it's not personal.
Sometimes it's a joy, sometimes I grieve for plants--and pets and people too. Sometimes it's just hard work that may or may not be rewarded.
I guess all of life goes that way.
Thank you for sharing with us.
Carry on!
bumplbea said:
Even gardening has been helpful. I'm a bit OCD/ADHD and proud of it.. I have spread out my garden into the horses pastures for a few acres now. Just grew what I could and learned as I went. It took a lot of mistakes to get it right. When I first started gardening I didn't know the difference between annuals and perennials. A few years later now my garden is a lovely area to relax and just play in the soil.
tigerpaws said: I can't say I myself have OCD or gross anxiety but as a gardener I do worry about many things ~ will my seeds germinate, will the plants grow, is there a disease going on and the list goes on and on. Gardening is a hit and miss kind of thing. It can be stressful but also rewarding.
sallyg said: Cooper, I hope you keep posting here.
Yes, working with plants can be frustrating. There are many things you can't control. It's hard for all of us to give up on sick plants, or to not take on plants we know we cannot keep happy. I've been interested in potted plants for about 50 years and had my own yard for 35, to get to this point where I can mostly take the losses without stress. And also just turn away plants I don't think will do well for me.
Bluespiral said: I don't think I could breathe without my passion for gardening, which I owe to my late dh. Before dh, there was a time I had no interest whatsoever in gardening or nature or that special confluence of art and science universal to every leaf, teaspoon of dirt and garden dream, which sometimes only the gardener can envision. Currently, my garden at its best is just a memory, and for now partial management is without my consent (interference).
Hamwild said: Sometimes I think our anxiety comes from not wanting to make a mistake or mess something up (after all, it's been so engrained in us since we were children that mistakes are "bad"). But, it's okay for something to not work out/die, you have to redo it, etc. Gardening mistakes shouldn't be looked at in such a negative light, but as learning opportunities.