Cooper24 I have horses and dogs along with my collection of garden plants. They are my support animals that helped me and so many others over the years. I had used the horses for a few years for kids with ADHD and for veterans to help change their focus coping with PTSD when riding. The horses teach so many different lessons about trust, building confidence and calming techniques. So do dogs.
Even gardening has been helpful. I'm a bit OCD/ADHD and proud of it.. I have spread out my garden into the horses pastures for a few acres now. Just grew what I could and learned as I went. It took a lot of mistakes to get it right. When I first started gardening I didn't know the difference between annuals and perennials. A few years later now my garden is a lovely area to relax and just play in the soil.
Over time learning skills improve . We all started from scratch… give it time and you too will become better every year . Practice garden skills slowly, reading about techniques and ask for help without fear of getting the above feelings you mentioned.
My best recommendation is learning from garden friends and neighbors near by or horticulture classes or a job in a nursery will teach you hands on experience about everything and learn what is best to grow in your zone. Computer access also has many you tube garden channels. A lot of garden questions are answered online too.
If I can help you in any way… just send a me TREE MAIL…
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