That is very impressive, Sabrina, to learn a language all on your own!
I have to say, though, that having studied both Spanish and Russian, each of which has feminine and masculine genders (Russian has neutral (or is that "neuter"
) also), that while that aspect of languages may be more complicated than in English, it is also somewhat logical. Or at least interesting.
And it sometimes makes learning vocabulary easier; for example, instead of two widely different words such as "son" and "daughter", in Spanish they are "hijo" and "hija", the same word but with different gender endings. Ditto "amigo" and "amiga" and so on.