So sorry to hear of your loss, Jacquie. It will be difficult for some time. Frankly, sometimes you never heal from the loss of your companion. Never. ... and that's OK. It hurts but "better to have a loved and lost than never to have loved at all". I wept for my two guys Lex and Bert just today and I lost them 6 and 1 1/2 yrs ago respectively. And I have an adorable gal with me now that I do love. My Standard Poodles. Take good care and remember him often.