I felt like giving up gardening several times in the years I've had my hands in the dirt. Didn't actually do it until this last winter. I didn't put up my greenhouse and carry out my annual ritual of hauling all my plants to the safe harboring of the warm greenhouse walls. Every single cherished plant froze and withered away. What was I thinking!!!???!! The realization hit after a while. Plants that had grown into mountains of foliage and rarities of past travels, gone. All gone! What was I thinking? I could have started my own nursery business with all the different flora and fauna I've hoarded over the years. After realizing my error, I was heart broken. I think the devastation of intentionally not caring for something I truly cared so deep about, actually hurt worse than the woes and pangs that accompanied the joy I got from tending these plants. So now, I'm praying the majority come back from the roots. It doesn't look good for a lot of them. My birthday is April 20th. To spare my husband the anxiety of deciding what to do nice for me, I've requested a day of plant and flower shopping. I won't make the same mistake again. I won't give up again.
