I hope you enjoy all of these Melissa and I want to see what you do growing these that are 10-12" for me under your conditions.
I have just gotten seedlings from the four of mine crossed to other giant ones and the seedlings are already quite big, bigger than I've ever seen it at this stage.
Now as for your lost minds, Bev and Melissa I think it's a good thing! Those are the moments that change our lives!
Kevin