Welcome Leda I'm not real big anymore on house plants due to my son was allergic to the mold that is produced when you water plants. He is 32 now and married with a home of his own but I still garden mostly on my back patio since he really hasn't ever outgrown his allergies.
Girl, I know exactly what you mean about people running when you mention you loss a child. We lost my 27 yr old step-daughter, 16 years ago after giving birth to her 2nd child. I had raised Joann since she was 7 yrs old and got Ashley full time at 9 days. I also had her 5 year old brother until he turned 18 and didn't want to follow rules anymore. I dove into gardening. It helped me a great deal. I hope you are also blessed by this adventure!!!