I believe there are those of us who are born as "old souls." I admire you for asking and researching plants and taking on indoor gardening, instead of hanging out at bars. I admire your compassion for others. I welcome your presence here.
Now, that said, I was shocked when you gave your age, because I thought you were much older. I am guilty of age discrimation just because I earned my grey hair and wrinkles.
(Now that I am laughing and rolling on the floor, can someone help me up? Oh my knees just aren't what they used to be....)
I am sorry you have pain, Joe.