Sorry to hear about all the sadness in your life right now Pixie. I hope you are able to get through these tough times and keep sharing your beautiful garden photos! I think the garden is a source of sanity and happiness in a crazy and sometimes depressing world. I don't want to sound like a crazy person but Sometimes when I sit and take in all the beauty in the garden I feel connected to the universe on another level almost as if I can feel loved ones that have past, love surrounding me. Hope you can find a place like that.