I might have to when I get back. I could go to the psychiatrist but I honestly hate him. He couldn't give less of a crap... He makes me feel like such an inconvenience and waste of time. I was waitlisted for a psychiatrist. Only reason I saw him was because of the hospital admit. He deals with inpatients at the hospital. I'd love a different one though. I'm not the only one either. When you look him up, he has poor reviews and ratings.
Having so much anxiety this morning about my travel tomorrow. Not sure if I just suddenly get travel anxiety now (I had it the last time I flew. Not all the times before), or if it's me being worried about mum... I feel a little guilty booking the visit when she's having a rough go. Even though she's still encouraging me not to worry and to go. Keeps telling me she'll be okay and "I'm not responsible for her". I guess I just see it as... she took care of me growing up, and when I had surgery as an adult. I feel like I should return the favor when she's in need. I know she's tough. She's been through some crazy things medically and always pulls through. I just can't help but worry. I hope I don't worry too much.
I really would feel better if I knew dad cared. But he gets angry when she isn't well and will downright refuse to help. I thought he was finally taking it seriously when I brought her to the hospital last week. But then he continued being an ass afterward. I just can't trust him to help. Mum always says she doesn't need him. But when she's struggling, I'd just feel better knowing someone was there. I'll be upset if I find out she's struggling and I'm all the way in Cal.
I'm a worry-worm...