Yes it was Ken. I am sorry for some of those words now and especially to Melanie. Thank you for removing that past message Dave.
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I'm not one to talk about personal issues as this is not a me thing. I hate making people feel sorry for me or burdening them with personal issues on a positive site for growing. If this helps though in explanation of that last unusual rant, it was likely due to this:
Michael, my very best friend who has believed in me and whom we have had a couple of successful business' is currently in the hospital and has been for a week. Its not going to be an easy ride for us and this is my time to realize very close and personally this amount of worry. This might even eclipse my own Mothers health situations and demise a couple of years ago. Michael has been in the hospital for a week with a tube coming out of his side, and has been diagnosed with Lung Cancer. Some of you may be aware that we have done everything together for 26 years and Michael is a non-complainer and wonderful person.
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This got me thinking about who our friends were. we do have a few locally, and mostly in other States, and never dreamed this would be happening and would not normally share here on this site this information. Then I thought to myself;...."Most of these folk here have never even seen my face, and it would be foolish to think they will like you any better if you're sharing sadness and don't agree with your life...
Wrong choice maybe, but its too late now!
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Be thankful for every day, and if any of you have any illnesses that are not given a poor prognosis thank God literally. If you have more minor illness', love those folk who support you and care for you now and allow yourself to develop yourself. These friends or family are not servants and we should talk to them and about them with the respect they deserve when we do. They are helping us even if they don't get our interests as much as we would like. Its clear to me more now then ever that;.......all of our time will change someday.....
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Thats all. I'm sorry, and keep growing while you can do it!
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I also apologize openly to another member who was kind enough to send some seeds, and I made the mistake of telling that member that their home was beautiful after Google mapping it. I have been looking for a possible next home here just in case I wanted to move and research properties hoping for a waterfront deal sometimes on Google maps.
I can't get the image Google has been showing of mine from years ago off the screen and while my neighbors are updated mine hasn't. Why does this matter to me? Because I've had a few folk tell me my place looks deserted and nothing like what I show in my pictures and website.
This is not a good thing indeed but realize It ain't going away. They did blur the house but the yard still looks like crap around the edges and have to deal with it. Thats life. I meant no invasion of privacy to the individual I Google mapped at all and was just thinking to take a look at their world. I received a treemail that was very unexpected and sad to me outlining how upset they were. If I thought I had done something wrong I would not have done it. I'm truly sorry to have upset this person too and still appreciate the seeds. Google maps aren't going away anytime soon though and I agree;.......unfortunately.